sitting in the forest and wondering who, what am I doing here

A transformation is taking place in the planet, not only with the environment and how we see and perceive world events, but also in the energy body of the earth. We too as individuals are impacted by and respond to this and these events; It is an extraordinary time.

The question I have, given that I have such a limited time here, what to do in this life. When I was younger there was an innocent clarity about what I did. now . .. it seems this is both harder to grasp and yet clearer. I am here to take part in the transformation that is taking place.

The forces of change, in this planet system, and within and between the planets and stars are immense. So too, beyond and through all this the waves of the energies of life are endless, seemingly without boundaries.

It's as if I experience less of a hold on this moment the solid material reality of now. and paradoxically as I know and accept that, the beauty of the physical world in which I am right now, the grass the trees, my body, the birds all nature and this computer I write on, are somehow brighter, clearer more vibrant, more 'real'; It's in and from this place that I hear, know and experience life.

I am a mystic, a visionary, a seer of things to come and life that is, hearing the echoes of the future and the past. I am a struggling human being coming to terms with this life and the unfolding of the constant shifting that is the mix of all the ingredients, all the pieces that make the pattern of this right now moment. I grasp, I allow, I struggle, I accept, I give up, I open to immense possibility, boundlessness and the view which I can hardly describe; this, all this is who I am, what makes up who I am.

What really is 'making a difference' when such a shifting is taking place, when there is no sense of a united purpose and understanding within and amongst people on this planet. - I'm here to give, I'm here to serve; I like these ideas and, so much of the time, I have heard and understood them from a place of fear, guilt, or righteousness, and often they have been said with the same resonance. I'll keep opening, I'll keep asking . .. what really is this . . REALLY * and how can I live my life in relation to that.

Everywhere

I'm Dying

Starlight Everywhere

 

Pressure

          Release

 

Held by     Love

 

 

E x i s t e n c e

Life and death

In wobbly tormentuous place
I notice also the place of golden
where there IS Peace & Joy
. . I Breathe into this .
Deeply . Gratefully . . . The sense of
Peace expands and holds me,
Swirls of Beauty & energy around
and through me. It holds
within it, the beauty that fades
and the death that is reborn
anew in different form. This
life is constant Death, surrender
dissolution, and rearrangement
and transformation into new
forms. This Birth life Death
cycle is but one part
of existence. For within, amongst
through all this is the
energetic dance & flow
of life -- constant irrespective
of and independent of anything
else : - This, Life, is,
and I am and everything
is part of and infused by
that Life
Eternal

Arriving

Two are become as one
Standing alone I hold the silver staff
Connected with the stars
Feet rooted to the fire of earth
all the universe exists in this moment
Safe, alive, well - powerFull, sufficient

Living and dying, this is life

   Peace   Peace  in
your    heart   Always
  holding  the Blessing of
the   Devine    washing
    away     all     fear
         Dissolved


I breath  Deeper  into the
Knowing of Life  and
within this is the
soul solution to
all the problems of Life

Ecstasy is alive  in and within
every  nuance of Life
the pounding heart , the
waves of life beating on
the shore of my existence
in human form . The
ebb and flow of which is
a miracle  in its
unKnowginess .  Peace dances
 in it's aliveness . . . .  Power  and
Passion  Push  their way
through the Layers of
inertia to this place
where I am    now

And the drip  drip  drip
of my soul  understanding
gives rise to a peaceful
glory which contains all
dimensions and realities of
existence .  Past all
understanding  I  know
what there is to
Know   about   Life
In this human body,  precious
human body   I exist
now in and out of
time & space,  experiencing
the Devine, Human, spiritual
awakeningness  and sleepfulness
opening & closing,  Living
and Dying . .  This
is    Life

Holding and knowing difference to be

Hard edges arise in the world and in your life.  It is NOT  needed that you change them or sort them all out .   - you have them too !!  and . .  it is OK, also , that when you feel them or too many of them, you choose to turn away from that situation, thing, or relationship . . . be  coming simple  in the moment . It IS ok  that you notice & experience that 'pain', notice that its there .  Some people do not even know it is such . .  you do O F T E N  . .   ~  let the dying be such . .  the crumbling  & someday to the dissolution  & dissolving  that is also with in  Life.  Allow the ROAR . . . the raw  roar, to also be there . . .  Too much & to many times have you held  back form that too . .   as you have been around other peoples  waves of negativity  so  long  . . .~   It is now time,  to let this story go .  other peoples life pain is NOT yours,  and you do not need to enter into, enrol yourself in that being true,  nor do you need to persuade them it is not true.  It is ok to simply just listen observe -  detached  --  you do not need to allow yourself to be enrolled in their story, their reality  - or even search for a place or places where you can agree, it is simply  OK to watch and know it is their  truth.   nothing to do, or to have to feel bad about it.  You can, it is OK, it is your right to feel also the beauty, magic and Big picture . . .  Too long you allowed yourself to be pulled into their fear, and often been afraid or felt guilty that that story vision, understanding is not yours.  That you see & know the bigger & magical reality.  Its OK, it really is  OK that you know that.  In fact its  really important and a rare thing which you need to acknowledge allow and be in more; accept this, for this is who you are.  In this way you can be more direct in what you see & know as the truth, because with many people it may very well be different than them.  For some will understand  and that is & will be a gift for you and for them as you share your heartful, heartfelt vision of the bigger understanding of Life.  And you may well be surprised at who goes there & who does not.  Blessings to you and for you and those you meet.

Touched by love

Still in the forest
I am touched by love
the edges of the universe
all existence right here
right now in this place