enter the cauldron of life, of certain death

 The simple sweet taste of Love.  It cuts thru
oh so gently powerfully , imperceptibly.  This
I Know   to be   true   beyond doubt .
All else pales in comparison to this
wondrous gift .      As a human being
I have my struggles, desires, wishes, longings
& regrets which, at times seem to be
all that there is .  In this, this forgetting
I am simply part of the waves of life,
the process of   belonging  & longing to belong.
In this, this soul longing, can I enter
fully the cauldron of living this Life?
sometimes it seems so, at other times
I seem to shrink  and hide  & run
away.  At these times  sometimes I get it
that this is happening and have a
great love and compassion for
myself in this condition, at other
times I harden against myself
and go to war against being
this way. Acceptance of myself, as I
am, yet with the potential & Knowledge
of Energy flowing where I choose to
focus,  with this understanding

 

15/10/2006

Wisdom arises from the Depth of my heart

Peace in every cell, manifestation of

the Divine at work in every action

The coming & going, irrespective of

outcome, this dance of Life -

this extraordinary Life. Death into

life, this human body, frail body

miracle of existence right

here within the space of this

flesh and bones . Coming alive,

coming alive to Life . One

beating heart moment upon

moment. resting here , in this

place opening & closing within

each Breath and thru each

breath moment across each

breath I rise and fall,

connected to all that is .

This is so, and I know this

to be so . . no matter what.

So often I have stretched out

stretched up to a place of grasping

towards, looking towards some future

time of place when some hoped

for wish will be fulfilled. And,

though it may be so, somehow

I have left myself left this

place this 'home' , this place

where I am . Seeing & sensing

this beauty that could be ,

can I stay with the beauty

that is of this moment right

now, the perfect beauty that

is here right now with all

that it is and all that it

is not.

Oh heavenly father

Divine mother

words that contain

so much, can I drop

away to inhabit this

existence as it is.

beauteous in perfection

beauteous imperfection

There is So much I would like

to do, accomplish, achieve and

I have had much struggle with

many things and areas. And, now
more than anything else I would
like to simply open to being
at peace a core peace
no matter what. - as it is,
as it could be and with
the journey of more or less
with the ease or difficulty
the pain or Joy the constant
shifting of life -
well in myself or not, healthy or
not, full of energy or not
within and thru all this,
day to day life can I know
this core Peace of
existence . knowing this I have
such gratitude

My future life ; tightening .
this life now ; opening & dropping
and then, in now, the future
already is a blessing

Mon 4 December 2006 - Marldon - fullmooon

the future already is a blessing

Wisdom arises from the Depth of my heart

Peace in every cell, manifestation of

the Divine  at  work  in every  action

The coming & going, irrespective of

outcome,   this  dance  of  Life  -

this extraordinary Life.  Death into

life, this human body, frail body

miracle of existence   right

here within the space  of this

flesh  and  bones .  Coming  alive,

coming alive to Life .  One

beating heart moment upon

moment.  resting  here  ,  in this

place   opening  &   closing  within

each  Breath  and thru  each

breath  moment  across each

breath  I  rise  and  fall,

connected  to  all that is  .

This is  so,  and  I know  this

to be  so  . .  no matter what.

So often I have  stretched out

stretched up to a place of grasping

towards,  looking towards  some future

time of place  when some hoped

for wish will be fulfilled. And,

though it may be so, somehow

I have left myself  left this

place  this  'home' , this place

where I am .  Seeing & sensing

this beauty that  could  be  ,

can I stay with the beauty

that is of this moment  right

now, the perfect beauty that

is here right now with all

that it is  and all that it

is   not.

 

            Oh heavenly father

            Divine mother

            words that contain

            so much, can I drop

            away to inhabit this

            existence as it is.

            beauteous in perfection

            beauteous imperfection

 

 

There is So much I would like

to do, accomplish,  achieve  and

I have had much struggle with

many things and areas.  And, now
more than anything else I would
like to simply open to being
at peace    a core peace
no  matter  what.  - as it is,
as it could be  and with
the journey of more or less
with the ease or difficulty
the pain or Joy  the constant
shifting of life  -
well in myself or not, healthy  or
not,  full of energy  or not
within and thru all this,
day to day life   can I know
this core  Peace   of
existence  . knowing this I have
such   gratitude 

 

 

My future life ;  tightening .
this life now ; opening & dropping
and then, in now,  the future
already  is  a   blessing

 

 

Mon 4  December 2006   -  Marldon -  fullmooon

Wisdom arises from the Depth of my heart

Peace in every cell, manifestation of

the Divine at work in every action

The coming & going, irrespective of

outcome, this dance of Life -

this extraordinary Life. Death into

life, this human body, frail body

miracle of existence right

here within the space of this

flesh and bones . Coming alive,

coming alive to Life . One

beating heart moment upon

moment. resting here , in this

place opening & closing within

each Breath and thru each

breath moment across each

breath I rise and fall,

connected to all that is .

This is so, and I know this

to be so . . no matter what.

So often I have stretched out

stretched up to a place of grasping

towards, looking towards some future

time of place when some hoped

for wish will be fulfilled. And,

though it may be so, somehow

I have left myself left this

place this 'home' , this place

where I am . Seeing & sensing

this beauty that could be ,

can I stay with the beauty

that is of this moment right

now, the perfect beauty that

is here right now with all

that it is and all that it

is not.

Oh heavenly father

Divine mother

words that contain

so much, can I drop

away to inhabit this

existence as it is.

beauteous in perfection

beauteous imperfection

There is So much I would like

to do, accomplish, achieve and

I have had much struggle with

many things and areas. And, now
more than anything else I would
like to simply open to being
at peace a core peace
no matter what. - as it is,
as it could be and with
the journey of more or less
with the ease or difficulty
the pain or Joy the constant
shifting of life -
well in myself or not, healthy or
not, full of energy or not
within and thru all this,
day to day life can I know
this core Peace of
existence . knowing this I have
such gratitude

My future life ; tightening .
this life now ; opening & dropping
and then, in now, the future
already is a blessing

Mon 4 December 2006 - Marldon - fullmooon

Point of Balance

Peace

Masculine & Feminine

The dance of Life

Polarities
&

Opposites

Similar & different

Energies
&

Wishes

in this heartful Life

resounds
&

merging

re emerging from seeming

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g

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n

c

y

life continues this Joyous

Dance

stuff . .. is stuff ( and yes, I seem to be chucking out stuff from boxes, and metaphorical emotional boxes a lot at the moment) AND whatever I think . . . I like, or don't like ( stuff : people, things, places .. ) and try successfully or not to get rid of . .. and whether I do or not . .. and whether 'simple' or 'complex' always .. *always* there is this one simple breath ... which is always there . .. when I take the time to notice it . .. THIS is the simple life . . again and again I return to . . the rest ... the rest, happy or unhappy passes ... simple or complex passes, one moment to one moment .. I cling, I let go . . it ALL passes . . . AND with this knowing deepening . . ( of this ... simple life) remembering, waking up to this more now, I start to play with the little material things . .. and the relationships . . more freely . . . . and ride thru the pain and sorry joy and ecstasy of this .... life

celebrating and mourning

I pull up to peace . . . a place ~
Destination to reach  . . .  yes  & NO .
Trusting the first impulse recognition
my   clear   sharp    awareness   soft
o p e n    respectfull   available
responsive  ,  in  this  moment  now ..
and now  again  the  grasping and
a   releasing ,  new life  energy flowing
softening   opening   dissolving ~ Loving
loving   this   moment    called  now .
repetitive phrases – alive or dead  . Yes.

 

Who  I am   in    all  this,   that
is   a    question !!   open  and available
to   this ,  to   this   life     this   instant
many    places      .   plans  expectations
interruptions  ...  interrupting  what ?  Part of
the  flow     o f      L i f e   .    Joyous
expectation  of  the   Divine  . .  .   and
sadness  & ecstasy   play on the surface
of my life .  . . .    giving myself to  this
to this    instant   of  trust   of
gratitude ,  poignancy  .    pregnant  & alive ,

 

Hope springs eternal , arises in my soul
the  long  lost   expectation  of life’s
understanding of itself  unto itself.
The mystery of these words ,
these   worlds   within  worlds  of
greatfull passionate  aliveness.
touching with intimacy the depths of
connection   within   awakening
this  possibility   of  life  experience
which  begins  and will end
at  some point   and   now
carries  forward   the more
conscious  recognition  of   Joyous
opening  & connecting  ~  meaningful &
meaningless .     What   are  the
dreams , wishes  expectations , desires
& needs   which   dance  on
the edges  of    consciousness?
Such longing   fulfilled , in  one
instant  ,  for an instant  .
can this feeding  be more of
an ongoing  daily day to day
experience   .  with  another?

First get this ,  get this life
which you already know .  Celebrate
this ,  this existence  which you
daily dance  in  .  Respond  to the
call of awakening  and the overflow 
of the wave of life  moving thru
this your precious  precious  life.
in    this    moment   now .

Chose to wake up, choose to
choose this   the Joy of it  the
joy of it   as the   waves  of ecstasy
& pain ,  pain and ecstasy  wash
over & thru your life ,  all
life experiences  in this
one  place  of now  ,  in this
profound  simple   complex   profane
Life     .In this    magnificent   Life
  oh  so    wondrous   , 

the pain  & ecstasy  ,  these
waves of desire , longing  resistance
and attachment      stronger and less
strong  -  These   are  the  places  &
soil  of      your   Life    existence
pilling up   & wearing   away   all
            is      r e v e a l e d  ~